I haven’t undergone a major life crisis, but over the past few weeks, I’ve had many small personal ones. It’s funny, sometimes little situations or changes can make me feel icky and unsettled, like I need a new layer of skin to shield me from everyone else. These things came up for various areas of my life, and I had to learn how to persevere, the way we all do from one time to another.
Here is some advice if you have felt abandoned or lonely or out-of-sorts: Life goes on as long as you are deciding that it does. Buy yourself some flowers, make yourself some coffee, put on your favorite records, light your candles at night, go to sleep early, go to sleep late, watch all your favorite shows, buy ice cream in the middle of winter, kiss your dog, hug your friend, draw something, write something, play the piano (poorly), buy a book you may never read, and be happy. There are things changing in my life and I don’t always have control over that, but I realized that while sadness may always come in life, so can happiness. Sometimes they exist at exactly the same time.
“I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an
open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when
I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should
reach out and touch someone.”
Bee Button – I got this adorable pin while galavanting around Northampton with my friend Emily. She had a matching one, then I bought a bee blouse, and good time was had by all.
Milani Lipsticks (Matte) – Holy cow, these lipsticks are becoming my absolute favorite. They go on easily and aren’t a pain to take off (favorite shade is Matte Passion)
Netflix’s A Series of Unfortunate Events – I am a Very Forceful and Dedicated admirer of Lemony Snicket, so this series was basically all I care about for about six months. I thought it was fantastic, and I binge watched it all and once and then rewatched it again. I’m mostly excited that they are putting so much effort into one of my favorite book series. The casting was impeccable and the acting is excellent. The only criticism I have is that I wish it had that dreary Victorian style that the movie exuded, as it gave off such a dismal mood. But I still loved everything they did with the sets and I am so incredibly ready for the next season.
X-Files – On a much different note, me and my mom have been binge watching X-Files at night. I’m not really sure how this started, but there are so many episodes, so I don’t see it stopping anytime soon. (I want to believe!)
What have you been into this month? I think we are al itching for the weather to warm up so we can go outside, so I’m curious to know what hobbies you’re interested in as well.
I am in the middle of clearing out my room and my closet of all things I no longer need. Spring has arrived early for me, as in, spring cleaning and de-cluttering. Compartmentalizing what I use and don’t use has helped me decide what are my absolute favorite things to wear. I thought I would make a collection of all of my favorite shoes right now. These are the shoes that carry me through my day, the things that stay firmly on my feet while I fly around my many projects. Hopefully soon I will be able to wear them without tights or very thick socks.
I have to say, shoes are a lot more sentimental than I thought they were. Sometimes I put on a pair of shoes and remember wearing them last season or a year ago and I remember the trials and errors of my life at that time. They can make you remember things you swore you forgot.
I had one of my dearest friends over my house this weekend and she wore her pair of black vans. This morning after eating breakfast I looked down at her shoes that she had slipped off somewhere near the table and remembered in the fall when it was just starting to get cool outside and I was at her house in New Hampshire and I had no appropriate shoes to wear. She let me slip them on while we drove ourselves to get my first tattoo.
As I looked down at the shoes which were now in my kitchen, I could almost feel the ache on my wrist where my tattoo lives, and I remembered the experience so vividly . It reminded me that I should take care of these accessories, because they literally carry me through my life, and they collect memories with me.
Leave some shoe stories below! What are your favorites? What memories do they hold?
“Keep your eyes on the stars,
and your feet on the ground “
As you may have gathered from my previous post, I reread The Hobbit by J. R. R. Tolkien. It was so magic and wonderful and a beautiful story to dive into during these cold winter days.
This is one of my favorite books of all time, and I highly recommend that you read it if you haven’t already!
“Where there’s life there’s hope.”
I also think it’s one of those stories that you can return to every so often and be charmed over and over again. As for me, I’m nursing a cold and stuck inside due to the feet of snow that are piling up outside my windows. I’m thinking of something a little different for my next read. I love the snow outside, but The Hobbit got me in a spring-y mood. I’m itching for the days that it gets warm in the afternoons and we can maybe plant some new flowers.
(I’ll leave you with another quote from the book because they are all SO good.)
“In a hole in the ground there lived a hobbit. Not a nasty, dirty, wet hole, filled with the ends of worms and an oozy smell, nor yet a dry, bare, sandy hole with nothing in it to sit down on or to eat: it was a hobbit-hole, and that means comfort.”
For awhile now, I’ve been itching for a record player to play my favorite music on. I wanted to tangibly be connected with the songs, and I was overjoyed to unwrap one on Christmas morning.
My parents felt extremely nostalgic as they showed me how to properly use it and care for it, and I sat by the player and watched the records spin and stayed in a blissful trance.
Some other amazing and thoughtful gifts that I received:
-A locket with my initials engraved on the front
-The Illustrated version of Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
-A collection of all the Harry Potter books in paperback
-A scarf from Italy
-A cross-stitching kit
-The new Pokemon game (thanks to my brother)
-Lush bath goodies
-A new watch
(and tons more)
I’ve been looking through all of these things lately and trying to use them and enjoy them. Sometimes after Christmas is over, I find that I forgot a lot of gifts or put them to the side. This year, I’m trying to use them all.
I decided that I was giving myself a gift this year: the will. I want to give myself the will to go out and do whatever it is that I feel like doing, or want to do, or should do. Life is too short, that is that realization that I have come to. Does that sound cheesy? Oh well. I don’t want to miss out on things because I was too lazy to seek it.
This brings me to my favorite quote from one of my favorite writers:
“If we wait until we’re
ready, we’ll be
waiting for the rest of our
The breeze, the blast
The wind, the cracks
The twigs, the ice
The freeze is nice.
An open road,
A heavy branch
Weighed down with snow
Across the ranch.
The icicles are intricate
Like lacy thoughts, they’re intimate
The glistening warms this heart of mine,
I dream often of winter time.
The one thing that I hope for myself in the New Year (besides the list that I previously posted about) is that I continue to evolve. I think about the past, about the versions of myself that I used to be at other times, and I am happy with where I am now. I’ve continued to grow and to not be afraid of where change might bring me.
It is such a beautiful thing to keep evolving, to never stop being curious about things.
I find that far too often, curiosity and creativity is squashed, but if you chase the things you wonder about, your life can be so much more.
And I don’t mean evolving in a Pokemon way, but, I suppose that works too. I think my plans to continue this pattern is to not have a pattern at all, but rather, to live spontaneously with a general path in mind. I have already started a few new ventures that I am excited to share very soon, and I am in love with the way they are shaping up.
What are your thoughts on change and growth?