I am writing this as I sit outside on our back patio. It isn’t necessarily warm, but it’s not cold out either.
I started thinking about how it’s almost been a year since I graduated from college. That is a strange feeling, as I wish that I had done a little bit more or had a more accomplished job by now. It started feeling like things were exactly the same as they were a year ago.
But, I got a new job, I’ve been published twice, and I’ve given my first official talk at a bookstore, so I am feeling slightly productive at this current moment in time.
Some of my ventures for the summer to keep me moving forward are:
- Start and maintain a successful garden
- Go to more writing groups in my area
- Start my own poetry blog
Let me know what your summer resolutions are, and I will be back here soon!
Photography can be an ailment. With lots of things going on like allergies, taxes, and bloating (oh my!) I needed an outlet. So I took some pictures of this delicious chocolate glazed donut.
Did this magical donut take away any of your anxiety? Well, I hope so. If anything, maybe you feel more hungry.
If you want to see what else I’m up to, you can check out my Instagram and Tumblr!
Something that has become very important to me over the years (and especially over the course of this month) has been positivity in the middle of everyday life. It can be hard to remember that being positive is possible, especially when we are faced with little challenges from the moment we wake up until we are falling asleep. Going through life and through the processes of our tasks can turn into being on auto-pilot, which maybe isn’t negative as much as it is neutral. But something woke me up recently, and I remembered that I am very much alive, not a robot, and I’d like to be fully awake for it. Part of that meant looking at things more positively.
Here’s the thing, when I am more present and aware of what is happening currently, it’s much easier for me to let go of the other stuff. That tends to be the stuff that clogs my brain and makes me second guess things. Being too much in my own head doesn’t allow me to appreciate the idea of anything, let alone appreciate things that are currently happening. Part of that is worrying. I think that if comparison is the thief of joy, than worrying is the thief of positivity. Worrying feels like it is getting so much accomplished, but it only feels that way because it’s hard work, and nothing positive ever comes of it.
Here’s my small and humble tidbit of advice: Create your own positivity and allow it to help you see things for how they really are
In other news, I have been binge watching The Great British Baking Show, so I have been lusting over cakes and biscuits and pastries. The result is late nights eating lots of key lime pie. I also just finally finished my bedroom, and I am so incredibly pleased with it. I’m hoping to take some more pictures in it now. Waking up to freshly painted walls and clean surfaces is just the thing I needed. Maybe it’s only natural that I am feeling more positive after a room remodel?
“When you start to feel like things should have been better this year, remember the mountains and valleys that got you here. They are not accidents. And those moments weren’t in vain. You are not the same, you are grown and you are growing. You are breathing, you are living. You are wrapped in endless boundless grace. And things will get better. There is more to you than yesterday.”
-Morgan Harper Nichols
I haven’t undergone a major life crisis, but over the past few weeks, I’ve had many small personal ones. It’s funny, sometimes little situations or changes can make me feel icky and unsettled, like I need a new layer of skin to shield me from everyone else. These things came up for various areas of my life, and I had to learn how to persevere, the way we all do from one time to another.
Here is some advice if you have felt abandoned or lonely or out-of-sorts: Life goes on as long as you are deciding that it does. Buy yourself some flowers, make yourself some coffee, put on your favorite records, light your candles at night, go to sleep early, go to sleep late, watch all your favorite shows, buy ice cream in the middle of winter, kiss your dog, hug your friend, draw something, write something, play the piano (poorly), buy a book you may never read, and be happy. There are things changing in my life and I don’t always have control over that, but I realized that while sadness may always come in life, so can happiness. Sometimes they exist at exactly the same time.
“I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an
open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when
I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should
reach out and touch someone.”
Bee Button – I got this adorable pin while galavanting around Northampton with my friend Emily. She had a matching one, then I bought a bee blouse, and good time was had by all.
Milani Lipsticks (Matte) – Holy cow, these lipsticks are becoming my absolute favorite. They go on easily and aren’t a pain to take off (favorite shade is Matte Passion)
Netflix’s A Series of Unfortunate Events – I am a Very Forceful and Dedicated admirer of Lemony Snicket, so this series was basically all I care about for about six months. I thought it was fantastic, and I binge watched it all and once and then rewatched it again. I’m mostly excited that they are putting so much effort into one of my favorite book series. The casting was impeccable and the acting is excellent. The only criticism I have is that I wish it had that dreary Victorian style that the movie exuded, as it gave off such a dismal mood. But I still loved everything they did with the sets and I am so incredibly ready for the next season.
X-Files – On a much different note, me and my mom have been binge watching X-Files at night. I’m not really sure how this started, but there are so many episodes, so I don’t see it stopping anytime soon. (I want to believe!)
What have you been into this month? I think we are al itching for the weather to warm up so we can go outside, so I’m curious to know what hobbies you’re interested in as well.
I am in the middle of clearing out my room and my closet of all things I no longer need. Spring has arrived early for me, as in, spring cleaning and de-cluttering. Compartmentalizing what I use and don’t use has helped me decide what are my absolute favorite things to wear. I thought I would make a collection of all of my favorite shoes right now. These are the shoes that carry me through my day, the things that stay firmly on my feet while I fly around my many projects. Hopefully soon I will be able to wear them without tights or very thick socks.
I have to say, shoes are a lot more sentimental than I thought they were. Sometimes I put on a pair of shoes and remember wearing them last season or a year ago and I remember the trials and errors of my life at that time. They can make you remember things you swore you forgot.
I had one of my dearest friends over my house this weekend and she wore her pair of black vans. This morning after eating breakfast I looked down at her shoes that she had slipped off somewhere near the table and remembered in the fall when it was just starting to get cool outside and I was at her house in New Hampshire and I had no appropriate shoes to wear. She let me slip them on while we drove ourselves to get my first tattoo.
As I looked down at the shoes which were now in my kitchen, I could almost feel the ache on my wrist where my tattoo lives, and I remembered the experience so vividly . It reminded me that I should take care of these accessories, because they literally carry me through my life, and they collect memories with me.
Leave some shoe stories below! What are your favorites? What memories do they hold?
“Keep your eyes on the stars,
and your feet on the ground “
As you may have gathered from my previous post, I reread The Hobbit by J. R. R. Tolkien. It was so magic and wonderful and a beautiful story to dive into during these cold winter days.
This is one of my favorite books of all time, and I highly recommend that you read it if you haven’t already!
“Where there’s life there’s hope.”
I also think it’s one of those stories that you can return to every so often and be charmed over and over again. As for me, I’m nursing a cold and stuck inside due to the feet of snow that are piling up outside my windows. I’m thinking of something a little different for my next read. I love the snow outside, but The Hobbit got me in a spring-y mood. I’m itching for the days that it gets warm in the afternoons and we can maybe plant some new flowers.
(I’ll leave you with another quote from the book because they are all SO good.)
“In a hole in the ground there lived a hobbit. Not a nasty, dirty, wet hole, filled with the ends of worms and an oozy smell, nor yet a dry, bare, sandy hole with nothing in it to sit down on or to eat: it was a hobbit-hole, and that means comfort.”