Yesterday, we had family and friends gathered at our house for a party to celebrate the long weekend, to celebrate Memorial Day, and to my surprise, to celebrate my birthday. Technically, my birthday is tomorrow, but that didn’t stop my mom from bringing out a platter of sugary tiny cupcakes and an adorable Happy Birthday banner.
But more than anything, it was lovely to be around loved ones and enjoy our new gazebo in the backyard.
I think it’s important to enjoy those moments, even if they don’t seem very important. Looking back, the day went by so quickly, and I’m shocked that everyone came and went so easily. But sharing a new space in your house with people to enjoy is so exciting, it’s the first time I’m really experiencing it.
It was supposed to be a sunny day yesterday, but the clouds never seemed to break, though I didn’t mind. How did your weekends go?
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Talk to you soon,
I hope everyone’s May is going wonderfully!
Talk to you soon,
I am writing this as I sit outside on our back patio. It isn’t necessarily warm, but it’s not cold out either.
I started thinking about how it’s almost been a year since I graduated from college. That is a strange feeling, as I wish that I had done a little bit more or had a more accomplished job by now. It started feeling like things were exactly the same as they were a year ago.
But, I got a new job, I’ve been published twice, and I’ve given my first official talk at a bookstore, so I am feeling slightly productive at this current moment in time.
Some of my ventures for the summer to keep me moving forward are:
- Start and maintain a successful garden
- Go to more writing groups in my area
- Start my own poetry blog
Let me know what your summer resolutions are, and I will be back here soon!
It is the breath of fresh air
Like the first warm April breeze
It is the sweet perfume of newness
Like flowers that have pushed out of the dirt
It is the anticipation an empty glass feels
Before it is finally filled
It is the itching a wick experiences
Waiting for its first burn of fire
It is the comfort of knowing
There will always be a tomorrow to wake to
It is the thing I have been looking for in all my digging
A glimpse of hope
A clean slate.
I haven’t undergone a major life crisis, but over the past few weeks, I’ve had many small personal ones. It’s funny, sometimes little situations or changes can make me feel icky and unsettled, like I need a new layer of skin to shield me from everyone else. These things came up for various areas of my life, and I had to learn how to persevere, the way we all do from one time to another.
Here is some advice if you have felt abandoned or lonely or out-of-sorts: Life goes on as long as you are deciding that it does. Buy yourself some flowers, make yourself some coffee, put on your favorite records, light your candles at night, go to sleep early, go to sleep late, watch all your favorite shows, buy ice cream in the middle of winter, kiss your dog, hug your friend, draw something, write something, play the piano (poorly), buy a book you may never read, and be happy. There are things changing in my life and I don’t always have control over that, but I realized that while sadness may always come in life, so can happiness. Sometimes they exist at exactly the same time.
“I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an
open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when
I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should
reach out and touch someone.”
For awhile now, I’ve been itching for a record player to play my favorite music on. I wanted to tangibly be connected with the songs, and I was overjoyed to unwrap one on Christmas morning.
My parents felt extremely nostalgic as they showed me how to properly use it and care for it, and I sat by the player and watched the records spin and stayed in a blissful trance.
Some other amazing and thoughtful gifts that I received:
-A locket with my initials engraved on the front
-The Illustrated version of Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
-A collection of all the Harry Potter books in paperback
-A scarf from Italy
-A cross-stitching kit
-The new Pokemon game (thanks to my brother)
-Lush bath goodies
-A new watch
(and tons more)
I’ve been looking through all of these things lately and trying to use them and enjoy them. Sometimes after Christmas is over, I find that I forgot a lot of gifts or put them to the side. This year, I’m trying to use them all.
I decided that I was giving myself a gift this year: the will. I want to give myself the will to go out and do whatever it is that I feel like doing, or want to do, or should do. Life is too short, that is that realization that I have come to. Does that sound cheesy? Oh well. I don’t want to miss out on things because I was too lazy to seek it.
This brings me to my favorite quote from one of my favorite writers:
“If we wait until we’re
ready, we’ll be
waiting for the rest of our
The breeze, the blast
The wind, the cracks
The twigs, the ice
The freeze is nice.
An open road,
A heavy branch
Weighed down with snow
Across the ranch.
The icicles are intricate
Like lacy thoughts, they’re intimate
The glistening warms this heart of mine,
I dream often of winter time.